28 Jan Thursday

Today went to take out my stitches
this time the one who do my operation come and meet me...
he say my report is 50 /50 the lump is still unknown it is 50% cancer 50% nothing.. but then he told me i dun have to worry. cos even if really wanna think of the really really negative way, he say lets say if it is, also dun have to worry cos it is taken out already. but they want to see hows the other side of the neck. wanna do blood test again on 12 dec. but then they say dun need to worry... so weird....
after that, jordan and i went to shop for salad! we bought this.. another packet of 200g of ham... so ex lor. total cost us $38!


final decision


jordan cut the potato and cook it


i didn't know he didn't peel the skin!


i went to daiso last yr and bought food puncher! so cute! i go punch the ham hehe.




he always tell me he know how to cook but cos never eat before his cooking. then i always complain never cook for me before. so he go make this


ham roll with crab stick and veggie


he say make for my family to eat. cos i told him my dad cannot eat sweet stuff, so he didn't add any sauce lol. forgot to tell my dad about this ham roll. he went to sleep liao...


look not bad wor. but i still haven't try it haha maybe tml lunch



we dun wanna waste anything. he go and fry salmon's skin

i go and fry bread's skin

finally can add everything together

then i realise he didn't peel the potato skin! so we took it out again and peel then put it back


the left side is his's.. salmon potato salad. right side is mine crab stick potato salad. and bacon bits!

last steps. adding hearts to it.








cos he make ham roll for me so i tell him i wanna make grass jelly for him


but....
half way...

he say. not like tat la. come i do show u. then he make the other half lol.

tada~


i love grass jelly~ haha

25 jan 10

such a waste of time!! I am suppose to take out my stitches on this day....

appointment-3.25pm. my mum took half day leave to accompany me there to see my report. we waited for 1 hour plus.. its not really long compared to the other time. finally its my turn 0743. feeling nervous and happy. i open the door... It is the doctor who poke my neck and run away after my operation! the one who poke very hard on my wound, i ouch and he say abit pain.. its like tat one.... i'll never forget his face. although he came only once....

he told me about the report, "for the time being", its alright, dun need to worry "for the time being". the lump they took it out, the cell inside didn't spread, but when they cut the lump open, they see some cell spread out. so dunno is it got abit spread out or it just spread out after they cut the lump open.
thought cut open the cell of cos will come out? but he say "for the time being" its alright. so we ask him. so must wait until when then know the report?

he say: ? the report is already out ar. "for the time being is ok"
mum and i: so when will know its confirm ok?
doctor: its ok ar. for the time being its ok.

ok.......

doctor: your stitches today still cannot take out, must wait till thursday. thursday will have a big doctor (big doctor usually refer to those who are very experience or those who does the operation) then the doctor will tell u the lump is it because cut open the cell come out or not.

.... tats what we are trying to know.....

doctor: so the medicine we gave u, u must eat all finish
me: oh so my thyroid medicine do i have to continue eating it or stop? (cos in hospital, all the doctor ask me to stop first wait for monday then tell me)
doctor: yar yar! everything eat finish
me : ?!?! everything eat finish? my thyroid medicine leh?
doctor: yar yar everything eat finish.
mum: she got other medicine she is taking. the thyroid. she must continue eat tat?
doctor: (suddenly soul come back) oh! the thyroid ar? oh no no dun eat dun eat.

(phew~ dun need to eat liao)

doctor: oh if u wanna eat also can. cos mine is not cancer dun need to go for any treatment so can eat. but the medicine i give u, pain killer, all this must eat finish

me: huh? but i thought the doctor say if not pain dun need to eat pain killer?

doctor: oh yar yar. not pain dun need to eat.


so must eat my thyroid medicine or not!?!? my report is good or bad? my mum and i walk out of the room blur blur.
go for payment. $25! without taking out my stitches, without know my report good or not, dunno need to continue eating my medicine a not.... we took a cab home... still feeling very confuse....

we spent about $50 ...
took cab there, $12.40
consultation fees, $25
took cab back, $13
.... without knowing anything ....

pray that the next time we go, please not this doctor again!

18 jan 10

this day have finally come! another scary day. must reach tan tock seng at 8.30am. so nervous! i reach there.. then the nurse ask me to change my cloths to their operation cloths. lie on the bed. then suddenly i become the monkey in the zoo like tat. around 10 ppl come see me. they look like doctors. then one of them tell me, they are students going to be a doctor, they are graduation this yr. same age as me! then one by one they ask me can they look at my neck? i say ok.......

then one by one they take turns, touch my neck, ask me to swallow . one by one one by one.. swallow until the last one, my throat so dry!! cos i have to fast from yesterday 12am. my throat sooo soo dry, after they finish, the nurse push me to the operation room. then the anesthetic doctor come and see me. talk to me awhile, then tell me wat is going to happen inside there.

after awhile, the doctor came, ask me what do i work as, then i say i'm a designer.... then very funny, i ask him so will my scar be very obvious? he say "oh no, we will design in a way tat it looks like winkle" hahaha why say design? sound funny. i go in, the anesthetic doctor very nice to me, keep telling me not to worry, relax. then they inject something to my vein on my hand. abit pain... really ouch a bit then they give me something to breath, they say its oxygen for me to breath, breath for a few time i will fall asleep. i breath for.. i think 10 times i still haven't sleep... then the other nurse say my face too small. so they give me another one. i breath for i think 3 times, fall asleep liao haha.

when i wake up, they say the operation is over. then i feel like i got super sore throat. when i swallow very pain. feel super sleepy. from 1pm i waited until 5pm then i got push up to the wards. they say no bed for me yet.... soo dizzy and feel abit like wanna burp but cannot burp like tat

finally i am up the bed, jordan came first, then he say my scar is ok. not very obvious.
bluff one lor!

i make it small small. cos it looks disgusting. haha the one thing, actually got a tube connect to this thing

my blood!
after a while my whole family came. but i was super super tired. no mood to entertain them haha. didn't eat for the whole day tat day. but i wake up at 11pm. go toilet. and feel super awake. then i try to eat something, they say if didn't eat, i have to have the tube connect to my vein. so i eat, hopping the tube can be take away . but then.. didn't leh... i have to sleep with that thing on my vein.

19 jan 10

i wake up in the morning, alot of doctors came to see me. they say my voice is good. didn't affect. then they see i can eat liao. the doctor ask me wanna go home today? i can go home already. but must bring this with me.


so weird. i have to bring this bottle and tube on my neck home. then next day go back take out the tube again. so i tell them i stay for one more day. then another doctor came. dunno what is he doing leh. he come and poke my neck. super pain! then he say abit pain hor? its like tat one. so pain la!

breakfast was mian xian. still can eat. lunch is some weird thing and meat with rice, i eat until super hard to swallow. then they say i can bath liao. thought they will help me. cos my neck cannot touch water. but no wor, they give me plastic tie on my neck then ask me to bath. bath my my neck muscle pain... dinner they gave me eat spicy mapo toufu with rice! wah how i eat! eat a few bite only. then my family came. and 2 other frens, i told them can dun come but they say they wanna come. haha. when they come, my sis got play monopoly card game. 4 of us play together lol. my fren give me this



and a pair of ear ring .
i keep sleeping, wake up, eat a few bite, sleep again. like pig like tat.

20 jan

finally i can discharge liao! happily play ds. happily waiting for the thing on my vein to take out. but the nurse came and insert some external things on it. then inject dunno wat thing. super pain! then i ask the nurse "i thought the doctor say can take out liao?" then the nurse say ok i go ask doctor, after a while, she come back take out. heng taking that thing out doesn't feel pain. the nurse say when she take out, i take a deep breath then won't feel pain. really leh! after that they take out the tube on my neck. can feel the thing taken out of m neck but can't feel the pain also.

after tat they say i am discharge. waiting for my sis to come fetch me. around 3pm.. i sleep again. haha. when she came, we go buy bread. take taxi home. i sleep again.

21 jan
wake up at 9am. jordan came. help me apply cream on the wound and heat up food.

around 12.30 pm he leave liao. need to work. haha very funny everytime he watch tv, his soul dunno go where, got tv, and its on, his head turn, then will stop there liao lol.
he stay in this position for... i think 3 mins while he is wearing his shoes.

24 jan 09

Now i'm better liao~ can use com alread haha. but still cannot go out, neck muscle feel pain after a while must lie down hahha. tml going to take out stitch liao. so nervous! hope tml is the last day to be nervous.
today very scary, i got wake up early in the morning around 4am. my mum and dad come in and ask me is my neck bleeding? i say no. then they say how come outside got blood stain? from a big patch till a small and fade one. at first thought my sis drink milo or something, but today when everyone is up, no one is bleeding!

so.. who's blood is it?!?!?!