I wanted to give it up but i couldn't let it go. Somehow, the war started since last yr. To run away or to stay, i chose to stay. Because someone said to me once, "if you've been to hell, everywhere is heaven" I thought once its over, I will be more relax, and be able to earn more money. But as time pass, why isn't the number in my bank increase? My health is getting weaker and weaker for working more than 12 hours a day.
I still love design but really hate the working hours. Who set the rules tat designers must work OT? If you ask me wat did they train us there, I would say trained to be a ninja. We would try to disappeared in the company, without anyone notice. We work for very long hours, crack our brain, without bonus and very little pay. Thinking about my future, wat happen when i am 40 yrs old? married with child but still have to crack my brain and work for 12 hours? I think i would be too tired to do so. I think i would rather work in office, office hour, no OT, dun need to crack my brain but with bonus. So.. I think i've decided.... to change my line... or rather, to change my career path... I hope the war can end now...
Just came back from dinner with a friend who i know for 18 years.
Yes! 18! we were best frens since pri 1. 7 yrs old. i know her family and she know my family. we didn't contact each other since i think when we are 18 or 19 yrs till now!
We still remember we always hold hands when we go to school together. and we always pretend tat one of us is blind. then one of us will close our eyes and the front person will lead the way. Play taxi driver and passenger when we went for swimming . we will piggyback each other to pretend we are driver. LOL During school holidays, cos there is a swimming pool just below our block, we went swimming everyday. really everyday until her eyes got infection from pools water. LOL. I think tats the reason why i'm so tan....
18yrs of friendship.. i mean.. how many 10 years can we have? we will treasure this friendship i'm sure. haha. going to meet up again soon! Actually now thinking back, its weird. i dunno where am i last 2 years. suddenly feel like i've lost contact of so many frens. Trying to contact everyone again this yr. seriously, i can't remember wat happen last yr and 2 yrs ago. its like missing 2009 and 2010...
Yes! 18! we were best frens since pri 1. 7 yrs old. i know her family and she know my family. we didn't contact each other since i think when we are 18 or 19 yrs till now!
We still remember we always hold hands when we go to school together. and we always pretend tat one of us is blind. then one of us will close our eyes and the front person will lead the way. Play taxi driver and passenger when we went for swimming . we will piggyback each other to pretend we are driver. LOL During school holidays, cos there is a swimming pool just below our block, we went swimming everyday. really everyday until her eyes got infection from pools water. LOL. I think tats the reason why i'm so tan....
18yrs of friendship.. i mean.. how many 10 years can we have? we will treasure this friendship i'm sure. haha. going to meet up again soon! Actually now thinking back, its weird. i dunno where am i last 2 years. suddenly feel like i've lost contact of so many frens. Trying to contact everyone again this yr. seriously, i can't remember wat happen last yr and 2 yrs ago. its like missing 2009 and 2010...
we have staff meeting today! so rare. after tat our boss told us our art director is leaving.... last yr tell us this yr might have bonus to take. this yr tell us next yr might have bonus...
This few days weather is so cold!!! i wore long sleeve today and still feel so cold! actually this kind of weather also not bad. can wear scarf!! last time after my operation i wear scarf i think ppl think i'm crazy. lol now can guang ming zhen da wear liao~
so tired.. sleepy.... i think i shall sleep now. haiz. after we come out to work, really got nothing to post. only complains haha
This few days weather is so cold!!! i wore long sleeve today and still feel so cold! actually this kind of weather also not bad. can wear scarf!! last time after my operation i wear scarf i think ppl think i'm crazy. lol now can guang ming zhen da wear liao~
so tired.. sleepy.... i think i shall sleep now. haiz. after we come out to work, really got nothing to post. only complains haha
Yes! after i post my resolution, i finally got time to blog!
suddenly feel like "where have i been this 2 years?" I wanna meet up with poly frens more often his yr! Actually, does anyone read this blog still? haha
Anyway, Something shocking happen today in my company.
Someone got fired by the boss today... when i heard about this news, the first thing tat comes into my mind was, "so few ppl liao still fired ppl?" which also means, the following weeks i will be doing OT again! argh! New job! New job pls!!
My company, total 10 ppl only including my 3 boss. if without my bosses, it will be only 7 ppl! And i can't believe with all those complains and unwillingness of working there (sometimes), i stayed for 1 and a half yr already! 1 and a half yr doing design without art director.
oh well, i really dunno wat i want now. web design or prints? i went for interview last yr.. nov? or is it dec. can't really remember, i'm interviewing for prints company. so, i go and print all my print work, do a portfolio for prints. Now planing to go for web design, then again, i haven't do a portfolio for web design! think have to go and do a web design portfolio. I think if i make 2 different portfolio. 1 print, 1 web design, will be more convinent haa
actually portfolio for website is more easy to do cos last time i've already made a templete. just have to add web design to it will do. but then again, all the website is with my programmer! have to get from him soon before he is leaving this company this feb.
See? everyone is leaving. i shall leave too. i really need a new environment.. *complain *complain *complain . Actually last time in mount sophia still ok. cos we see trees, sky, open air. but now we are like working in a store room. no window! everyone is so depress and get angry easily while working there.
k enough of work... haiz... if i continue i think i can blog for 2 days. i want everything new this yr!!!
Went to Scape last sat. I didn't know there is such place in orchard!!!!! everything there sell so cheap! i bought 2 dress , 1 dress, $6, another one $8 so cheap rite!!! i sooo regret i didn't buy more. i thought like jonker street in malacca like tat. they open every weekends....
the next day i went with my sis again, it become a place where ppl skate. -_- so disappointed! i wonder when are they opening again.
suddenly feel like "where have i been this 2 years?" I wanna meet up with poly frens more often his yr! Actually, does anyone read this blog still? haha
Anyway, Something shocking happen today in my company.
Someone got fired by the boss today... when i heard about this news, the first thing tat comes into my mind was, "so few ppl liao still fired ppl?" which also means, the following weeks i will be doing OT again! argh! New job! New job pls!!My company, total 10 ppl only including my 3 boss. if without my bosses, it will be only 7 ppl! And i can't believe with all those complains and unwillingness of working there (sometimes), i stayed for 1 and a half yr already! 1 and a half yr doing design without art director.
oh well, i really dunno wat i want now. web design or prints? i went for interview last yr.. nov? or is it dec. can't really remember, i'm interviewing for prints company. so, i go and print all my print work, do a portfolio for prints. Now planing to go for web design, then again, i haven't do a portfolio for web design! think have to go and do a web design portfolio. I think if i make 2 different portfolio. 1 print, 1 web design, will be more convinent haa
actually portfolio for website is more easy to do cos last time i've already made a templete. just have to add web design to it will do. but then again, all the website is with my programmer! have to get from him soon before he is leaving this company this feb.
See? everyone is leaving. i shall leave too. i really need a new environment.. *complain *complain *complain . Actually last time in mount sophia still ok. cos we see trees, sky, open air. but now we are like working in a store room. no window! everyone is so depress and get angry easily while working there.
k enough of work... haiz... if i continue i think i can blog for 2 days. i want everything new this yr!!!
Went to Scape last sat. I didn't know there is such place in orchard!!!!! everything there sell so cheap! i bought 2 dress , 1 dress, $6, another one $8 so cheap rite!!! i sooo regret i didn't buy more. i thought like jonker street in malacca like tat. they open every weekends....
the next day i went with my sis again, it become a place where ppl skate. -_- so disappointed! i wonder when are they opening again.
13-11-10
I've really forgot my password and email address. haha. took sometimes to find my email and password..
wah even how to put this monkey here also forgot le... -_-
Didn't know my last post is after my operation. My scar is fading already~ many new fren didn't know i have a scar there until i told them.
大嘴巴。。
Just pack my room today. took 5 hours to pack them. Feel soooo tired now.. . Cos after packing i vacuum the whole house and mop them, bring down the cloths half way it start raining, then hurried to the window to bring them in, fold the cloths, iron them. YES SIS, i IRON your pink cloths today! haha
Pack my room halfway, i realise.. with all those accessories, i think i can open a blog shop wor!
Things to tie my hair
my necklace
My necklace#2
Necklace #3
still got no #4 didn't took picture of it haha
and ear rings, belts, braces, .... i think.. i won't buy any shirt or dress for my new year. really need to save up liao...
This is my bed! 难得 so neat. haha Everytime i've finish packing my room, i'll hope to have some fren come my room. haha Last time i use to sleep in this position. but my parents always worried i'll wake up with a flatten face. cos there is a very heavy platform nailed to the wall. then i always have heavy books on top. they say it will surely fall someday.
So, everyday i can't sleep peacefully hahah.
This few weeks always forgot whether i have eaten medicien a not. really lost my memories liao..
Yesterday after lunch, i just told my colleague. "this time after we are going back, i will check my hand got wallet, umbrella, handphone." after tat we went to sheng siong. I go buy anlene milk and HL milk.
Happily hurried back, want to drink my milk. usually i will throw all my stuff in my locker. then at nite, i meet my sis. didn't buy anything haha. I didn't realise I FORGOT MY WALLET IN THE OFFICE!!!
wah, In the end my sis accompany me back to my office to take my wallet. it is stuck at the side of my chair... so it means... when i was doing my work, swing here swing there, it is in the midst of falling down haha. But lucky still can find back my wallet. so scary!
Cos a few weeks ago, my fren and i went to insonmia. they stop me cos i didn't show IC. From that day onwards, i always put my IC in my wallet. Inside got ATM card too. heng ar~
But really dunno wat happen to my brain this few days, always feel sleepy and always gone blank... i dun mean i fainted but.. you know.. 放空.....
I've really forgot my password and email address. haha. took sometimes to find my email and password..
wah even how to put this monkey here also forgot le... -_-
Didn't know my last post is after my operation. My scar is fading already~ many new fren didn't know i have a scar there until i told them.
大嘴巴。。Just pack my room today. took 5 hours to pack them. Feel soooo tired now..
. Cos after packing i vacuum the whole house and mop them, bring down the cloths half way it start raining, then hurried to the window to bring them in, fold the cloths, iron them. YES SIS, i IRON your pink cloths today! hahaPack my room halfway, i realise.. with all those accessories, i think i can open a blog shop wor!
Things to tie my hair
my necklace
My necklace#2
Necklace #3
still got no #4 didn't took picture of it haha
and ear rings, belts, braces, .... i think.. i won't buy any shirt or dress for my new year. really need to save up liao...
This is my bed! 难得 so neat. haha Everytime i've finish packing my room, i'll hope to have some fren come my room. haha Last time i use to sleep in this position. but my parents always worried i'll wake up with a flatten face. cos there is a very heavy platform nailed to the wall. then i always have heavy books on top. they say it will surely fall someday.
So, everyday i can't sleep peacefully hahah.
This few weeks always forgot whether i have eaten medicien a not. really lost my memories liao..
Yesterday after lunch, i just told my colleague. "this time after we are going back, i will check my hand got wallet, umbrella, handphone." after tat we went to sheng siong. I go buy anlene milk and HL milk.
Happily hurried back, want to drink my milk. usually i will throw all my stuff in my locker. then at nite, i meet my sis. didn't buy anything haha. I didn't realise I FORGOT MY WALLET IN THE OFFICE!!!
wah, In the end my sis accompany me back to my office to take my wallet. it is stuck at the side of my chair... so it means... when i was doing my work, swing here swing there, it is in the midst of falling down haha. But lucky still can find back my wallet. so scary!
Cos a few weeks ago, my fren and i went to insonmia. they stop me cos i didn't show IC. From that day onwards, i always put my IC in my wallet. Inside got ATM card too. heng ar~
But really dunno wat happen to my brain this few days, always feel sleepy and always gone blank... i dun mean i fainted but.. you know.. 放空.....
28 Jan Thursday
Today went to take out my stitches
this time the one who do my operation come and meet me...
he say my report is 50 /50 the lump is still unknown it is 50% cancer 50% nothing.. but then he told me i dun have to worry. cos even if really wanna think of the really really negative way, he say lets say if it is, also dun have to worry cos it is taken out already. but they want to see hows the other side of the neck. wanna do blood test again on 12 dec. but then they say dun need to worry...
so weird....
after that, jordan and i went to shop for salad! we bought this.. another packet of 200g of ham... so ex lor. total cost us $38!
final decision
jordan cut the potato and cook it
i didn't know he didn't peel the skin!
i went to daiso last yr and bought food puncher! so cute! i go punch the ham hehe.
he always tell me he know how to cook but cos never eat before his cooking. then i always complain never cook for me before. so he go make this
ham roll with crab stick and veggie
he say make for my family to eat. cos i told him my dad cannot eat sweet stuff, so he didn't add any sauce lol. forgot to tell my dad about this ham roll. he went to sleep liao...
look not bad wor. but i still haven't try it haha maybe tml lunch
we dun wanna waste anything. he go and fry salmon's skin
i go and fry bread's skin
finally can add everything together
then i realise he didn't peel the potato skin! so we took it out again and peel then put it back
the left side is his's.. salmon potato salad. right side is mine crab stick potato salad. and bacon bits!
last steps. adding hearts to it.
cos he make ham roll for me so i tell him i wanna make grass jelly for him
but....
half way...
he say. not like tat la. come i do show u. then he make the other half lol.
tada~
i love grass jelly~ haha
Today went to take out my stitches
this time the one who do my operation come and meet me...
he say my report is 50 /50 the lump is still unknown it is 50% cancer 50% nothing.. but then he told me i dun have to worry. cos even if really wanna think of the really really negative way, he say lets say if it is, also dun have to worry cos it is taken out already. but they want to see hows the other side of the neck. wanna do blood test again on 12 dec. but then they say dun need to worry...
so weird....after that, jordan and i went to shop for salad! we bought this.. another packet of 200g of ham... so ex lor. total cost us $38!
final decision
jordan cut the potato and cook it
i didn't know he didn't peel the skin!
i went to daiso last yr and bought food puncher! so cute! i go punch the ham hehe.
he always tell me he know how to cook but cos never eat before his cooking. then i always complain never cook for me before. so he go make this
ham roll with crab stick and veggie
he say make for my family to eat. cos i told him my dad cannot eat sweet stuff, so he didn't add any sauce lol. forgot to tell my dad about this ham roll. he went to sleep liao...
look not bad wor. but i still haven't try it haha maybe tml lunch
we dun wanna waste anything. he go and fry salmon's skin
i go and fry bread's skin
finally can add everything together
then i realise he didn't peel the potato skin! so we took it out again and peel then put it back
the left side is his's.. salmon potato salad. right side is mine crab stick potato salad. and bacon bits!
last steps. adding hearts to it.
cos he make ham roll for me so i tell him i wanna make grass jelly for him
but....
half way...
he say. not like tat la. come i do show u. then he make the other half lol.
tada~
i love grass jelly~ haha
25 jan 10
such a waste of time!!
I am suppose to take out my stitches on this day....
appointment-3.25pm. my mum took half day leave to accompany me there to see my report. we waited for 1 hour plus.. its not really long compared to the other time. finally its my turn 0743. feeling nervous and happy. i open the door...
It is the doctor who poke my neck and run away after my operation! the one who poke very hard on my wound, i ouch and he say abit pain.. its like tat one.... i'll never forget his face. although he came only once....
he told me about the report, "for the time being", its alright, dun need to worry "for the time being". the lump they took it out, the cell inside didn't spread, but when they cut the lump open, they see some cell spread out. so dunno is it got abit spread out or it just spread out after they cut the lump open.
thought cut open the cell of cos will come out? but he say "for the time being" its alright. so we ask him. so must wait until when then know the report?
he say: ? the report is already out ar. "for the time being is ok"
mum and i: so when will know its confirm ok?
doctor: its ok ar. for the time being its ok.
ok.......
doctor: your stitches today still cannot take out, must wait till thursday. thursday will have a big doctor (big doctor usually refer to those who are very experience or those who does the operation) then the doctor will tell u the lump is it because cut open the cell come out or not.
.... tats what we are trying to know.....
doctor: so the medicine we gave u, u must eat all finish
me: oh so my thyroid medicine do i have to continue eating it or stop? (cos in hospital, all the doctor ask me to stop first wait for monday then tell me)
doctor: yar yar! everything eat finish
me : ?!?! everything eat finish? my thyroid medicine leh?
doctor: yar yar everything eat finish.
mum: she got other medicine she is taking. the thyroid. she must continue eat tat?
doctor: (suddenly soul come back) oh! the thyroid ar? oh no no dun eat dun eat.
(phew~ dun need to eat liao)
doctor: oh if u wanna eat also can. cos mine is not cancer dun need to go for any treatment so can eat. but the medicine i give u, pain killer, all this must eat finish
me: huh? but i thought the doctor say if not pain dun need to eat pain killer?
doctor: oh yar yar. not pain dun need to eat.
so must eat my thyroid medicine or not!?!? my report is good or bad? my mum and i walk out of the room blur blur.
go for payment. $25! without taking out my stitches, without know my report good or not, dunno need to continue eating my medicine a not.... we took a cab home... still feeling very confuse....
we spent about $50 ...
took cab there, $12.40
consultation fees, $25
took cab back, $13
.... without knowing anything ....
pray that the next time we go, please not this doctor again!
such a waste of time!!
I am suppose to take out my stitches on this day....appointment-3.25pm. my mum took half day leave to accompany me there to see my report. we waited for 1 hour plus.. its not really long compared to the other time. finally its my turn 0743. feeling nervous and happy. i open the door...
It is the doctor who poke my neck and run away after my operation! the one who poke very hard on my wound, i ouch and he say abit pain.. its like tat one.... i'll never forget his face. although he came only once....he told me about the report, "for the time being", its alright, dun need to worry "for the time being". the lump they took it out, the cell inside didn't spread, but when they cut the lump open, they see some cell spread out. so dunno is it got abit spread out or it just spread out after they cut the lump open.
thought cut open the cell of cos will come out? but he say "for the time being" its alright. so we ask him. so must wait until when then know the report?
he say: ? the report is already out ar. "for the time being is ok"
mum and i: so when will know its confirm ok?
doctor: its ok ar. for the time being its ok.
ok.......
doctor: your stitches today still cannot take out, must wait till thursday. thursday will have a big doctor (big doctor usually refer to those who are very experience or those who does the operation) then the doctor will tell u the lump is it because cut open the cell come out or not.
.... tats what we are trying to know.....
doctor: so the medicine we gave u, u must eat all finish
me: oh so my thyroid medicine do i have to continue eating it or stop? (cos in hospital, all the doctor ask me to stop first wait for monday then tell me)
doctor: yar yar! everything eat finish
me : ?!?! everything eat finish? my thyroid medicine leh?
doctor: yar yar everything eat finish.
mum: she got other medicine she is taking. the thyroid. she must continue eat tat?
doctor: (suddenly soul come back) oh! the thyroid ar? oh no no dun eat dun eat.
(phew~ dun need to eat liao)
doctor: oh if u wanna eat also can. cos mine is not cancer dun need to go for any treatment so can eat. but the medicine i give u, pain killer, all this must eat finish
me: huh? but i thought the doctor say if not pain dun need to eat pain killer?
doctor: oh yar yar. not pain dun need to eat.
so must eat my thyroid medicine or not!?!? my report is good or bad? my mum and i walk out of the room blur blur.
go for payment. $25! without taking out my stitches, without know my report good or not, dunno need to continue eating my medicine a not.... we took a cab home... still feeling very confuse....
we spent about $50 ...
took cab there, $12.40
consultation fees, $25
took cab back, $13
.... without knowing anything ....
pray that the next time we go, please not this doctor again!