getting our new house

I woke up sooo sooo early today. 7pm? Suddenly feel like eating curry puff. Its the first time i go downstairs to buy breakfast today. So, this is where my mum always buy curry puff. they got small and big one.

This few days we received the HLE loan letters from 3 yrs ago. Where they only calculate my CPF. Quite scary. So i send an email to appeal for bigger loan, like resubmit HLE loan but we scare if we do it online, it will be from 30 yrs to 25 yrs. So i emailed and ask. This morning, we receive the email from them! They had help to review and the email write, they had reviewed and  loan is approve with that amt.. that amt is even higher than the price of the HDB.... so strange! Had a feeling they type wrongly. We shall wait for the letter then. but its quite a relieve. cos viewing from the HLE loan the last time we had, it is pathetic. But then again, last time they only use my CPF.

The reason why i feel scare its because both of us always very sway. Last week we went Malaysia, can also stuck in the custom! Cos my finger print cannot go through. Had to go to their office. How sway can we be... ok, i must remember 1000 sorrow, 1000 happiness, now we so sway, our luck will come soon.

Later can go Ikea and shop! quite exciting! Feel like our house really is coming soon!

stress with work.. I think.. and team building

04 Nov 2016

Its mummy's birthday! I forgot to wish her a happy birthday when i woke up...

why? because i woke up with a very very sad and strange dream.

When i am working last night, i suddenly got kick out from one of the function in the system, and my dream just continue from there. 

(Dream)

I ask Vernice for help, when she is helping, it is very strange, when i ask her for help, it is 5pm. Time passed sooooo fast, she click like 1-2 things only but the time is like 6pm already. 

So I went to the bus stop, it is strangely crowded. with quite a few of the policemen. then i realise there are someone dead! So i went home and told my mum about it, don't know what happen, my mum told me that it is one of my father fren. 

(Flashback from my mum's memory)

It is in a very big room, my dad , mum look so young. like 20+ with the 80s hair style with some of their frens. my mum in the dream look like Caucasian. It is quite strange, it seems like a gathering, but they know that that one fren is going to die soon. They are talking about their pass, look very happy. When they are going to sleep, that fren is going to sleep in the coffin! All of them say their last words to him before they sleep together (but only him in the coffin) 

(Back to reality)

My dad told me, sometimes, he sometime still miss his passed away fren. 

And I woke up from that. SO SAD!

What kind of dream is that! I think maybe tats why i forgot to wish mummy happy birthday in the morning hahahah.

oh but we have team building! So we are going to have halfday today! Quite happy about it. At first feel so sian of this team building thing. Cos we really don't know what are we going to do. It shows a picture of stones and the email wrote "hint from the picture" 1.30-6pm. Vernice said "Oh I know! draw stone!" I really LOL when i heard that. you mean from 1.30 we draw until 6pm?!?!? Just how big is the stone! hahahah

But in the morning in the office, the person who approve the budget, accidentally told me what we are going to do for team building! haha he didn't know none of us know. he ask me "you are going to cook later ar" We suddenly become quite excited. its cooking! i thought we are going to learn how to cook. but its a cooking competition. Anyway, cooking competition is better than playing random games. I am still quite happy about it. hohohoho~

Each of the group will get different kind of ingredient. Quite random ingredient. but will have one meat.

Ours happen to be Salmon and bitter ground and 2 carrots....
Quite tough, quite fun, we got the last. hahahaha

Thats what the rest cooked. So PRO! The salmon is ours!

I eat quite alot of snacks that day and feel really guilty, After all food tasting, I am actually quite full and there is a packet of mix rice waiting for me at home. So I think, why not i go run, after tat will feel hungry, then can eat already! so i run run run, wanted to hit 8km. But always cannot even hit 7km. Only manage to run 6km. After dinner, my body cannot take it anymore, hand, leg, body, all no strength. lol i fall asleep at 9pm+! 

Never had been so tired before.

Back track 15 Oct 2016

I really don't know how come Jordan like to sleep in a really strange position.
he can sleep, flip, turn, 360 degree when he sleep..

 After he turn, flip, the next moment i woke up, he is like.. 5cm away from me. i think i woke up from his hot breath blowing on my face......quite disgusting... hahaa

16 Oct 2016

Had been craving for crab for sooo long.
We finally go to M Hotel!!
CRAB CRAB CRAB CRAB CRAB!

Chilli CRAB!

I remember the during dessert is so good. After all the seafood, strangely the next day i woke up with full of energy and feel sooo happy! Really dunno what happen.

08 Oct 2016.

We just keep watching TV the whole day. The movie Storks is nice. i like it. Recently i have been so into infuse water. I really feel good after drinking it. like more refreshing than plain water. Last time after drinking plain water, i always crave for mint sweets. Now it feels so good! So, i went to Pinterest to search for more favour.

Hypothyroid- slow in metabolism,
So i am really going to boost my metabolism this time.
Next, i shall try ginger, lemons and mints. maybe try with cucumber see if its nice.
strawberry, lemons and mints
and apple, cinnamon and mints!
They have strawberry, cinnamon and lime too! I wonder how does strawberry cinnamon taste like.

There are so many fruits to put in! I have google the benefit for these fruits. So that next time i can just refer to this to see the benefit in one go.

Strawberry- High fiber, reduce inflammation, anti-aging, helps burn excess fat, antioxidants, boost short term memory, low calories, help to lower cardiovascular disease, promotes blood flow, weigh loss, has Potassium, Vitamin K and Magnesium for good bone.

Ginger- Sooths irritable bowel syndrome, weigh loss, relieves tired muscles, help morning sickness, reduce arthritis inflammation (oh i have this!), improve circulation, prevent heartburn, fight cancer, fight alzheimer's disease, improve breath, strengthens immune system, protect against radiation, clear skin, heals frostbite, reduce risk of heart attack, relieves gas, relieves menstrual cramps, fights infections, protects against diabetes

Lemons- Alkalizes the body, (I always thought its acids haha), Asthma treatment, balance blood sugar levels, Caffeine replacement, detoxifies, fight cancer, heart food, help hydrates our Lymphatic system, treat constipation, improve digestion, eyesight, immune system, increase metabolism, weigh loss, hydrate, kill free radicals, kills worms? lower high blood pressure, lower stress level, prevent bad breath, radiant skin, reduce uric acid and inflammation, treats kidney stones and prevent it, UTI prevention, good for liver.

Mints leaf- sooths digestive tract, eliminates toxins, reduce bacteria, fungus, cure asthma, whiten teeth and reduce bad breath, cure insect stings and bites, preven colon, skin and lung cancer, relieves aches and pains, blood cleanser, lose weight, relieves fatigue and depression

Cucumber- Constipation, healthy urinary bladder and kidney, fights intestinal worms, high antioxidants, prevent diabetics, good for dental health, blood pressure issue, strenthen bones, controls puffiness of eyes, fights cellulite (apply on it or eat it?) , Rich in Vitamin A - healthy vision and eyes, full of Vitamin B - give body a lift of energy, prevent heart disease, reduce inflammation and water retention, good source of immune- boosting zinc.

Cinnamon- Blood sugar control, fights yeast infections, eases stomach flu, prevent irritable bowel syndrome, prevent cancer, prevent arthritis, anti- bacterial, food preservative, odor neutralizer, alertness, good for brain,weight loss, antioxidant, lower LDL cholesterol, E-coli fighter/Salmonella (whats that?) prevent tooth decay and gum disease, nutrients, insect repellent? (rub on myself?) treat cold, sore throat and cough, prevent neurogenerative diseases, virus fighter, anti relief.


I don't want to keep drinking the same thing everyday. Maybe Monday Strawberry, lemons and mints, Tuesday Lemon cucumber and mints, Wednesday apple, cinnamon and mints, after that ginger, lemons and mints. So excited for the free apple my company sometimes provide. Can't wait to buy them! I heard that it is really easy to grow mints and i heard that Daiso has it. I keep thinking that Dhobby ghaut has Fitness NTUC. So i decided to make a drip there.

Who know, Daiso no mint leaf.. and it is super expensive cold storage not fitness NTUC. hahaha. In the end i only bought mint leaf in Miniso.

I should have just go to Sembawang shopping center... They have Giant there!!

My eyes feel so tired when i reach home. I fall asleep very fast after my shower.


I was sleeping so peacefully suddenly got attacked by him. he use his elbow hit my head! lucky my hand was there. So he hit my hand instead. After he hit me he got shock too. Told me sorry and fall asleep.



I think he want to tell me he is sorry, so he sleep like tat with one hand on my waist.




I don't know what he dream, his hand suddenly jerk!

07 Oct 2016

Vernice is suppose to take halfday leave today.. but as usual, everytime she is on leave, her children will get sick. So she took urgent leave again.

Suddenly I have so much work! But not because I am her back up. Its like really everyone started to find me for help. Ok, at least my position is stable right? won't be retrench.
A few weeks ago from India site, they close down one of the department. We are so scare it will be our turn soon. hahaha


After work we went to 100AM for dental. The place is so comfy~
When you come in, there is a long sofa behind the short one, then beside is the kids corner!

So many toys to play with! got video game too.

This is the view from the long sofa. 

They even provide blanket! Make me want to fell asleep while waiting for Jordan.

The dental is a Korean. She is so pretty and gentle! After removing my braces, my dental never help me to scrub off the left over ceramic. She helped me remove all. now my teeth feel so smooth again. 

 I will definitely come back. Like.. look quite Atas also.

I was craving for Mcwing so much. So, after dental, we went to eat mcwings and shaker fries! everything stuck back to my teeth. Muahahaha.

After Rupaul all starts show, I fainted.. really KO.

He sleep so peacefully smelly my armpit.

05 Oct 2016

Yesterday went swimming with my sis and i suddenly remember today i will have piloxing! Its a free class! I remember the last time i went piloxing at my office area, we remove shoes. So today, i decided to not bring any shoes.

The timing for the piloxing is 6pm. i usually leave at 5pm everyday. So i just stay, slack around until 5.30pm. Went over to the place, i was too early so i just seat at the sofa and slack, its sooo strange! usually 5.45pm will have people coming in, how come 5.58pm still nobody..

Then i realise i went to the wrong place... Lucky i didn't bring my shoes! If not i bring for nothing. In the end i went back home with my sport attire.

Wah the train was super crowded, i keep getting push by strangers. push half way i saw someone looking at me at his seat. After a while i receive a messsage from facebook asking if i am taking train towards bishan. The moment i receive the message, I know its that guy. So i went over and say hi. he ask me who do I still stay contact with, i told him rui fen, ailynn all those. Then he told me he is working as a swimming coach and life guard. coach near my working area, life guard near my house... 

After that he told me he think he saw me last week with a friend...  It sound so scary! So, he is a life guard at my house area swimming pool... I think they have life guard only on Saturday and Sunday. I shall avoid these days then...

He then told me about his mum pass away this yr, I really don't know what to say... then we chat chat chat, i told him i'm married, then he say now left him. So i ask him about his girl friend. he suddenly sigh.
me: "what happen?"
him "She ar... haiz.."
me: "How old is ur girlfren?"
him"She is 28"
me"then what happen"
him"Her mentality is like Haiz.. like Junior college"
me "huh?" ( is he trying to tell me his girl fren is smart or trying to tell me she is childish?)
me "I don't get you"
him "her mentality is like Junior college lor"
me" huh? I still don't get you. you mean she is very smart?"
hahahha usually ppl say the mentality is like Pri school or Kindergarden right. When want to say someone is childish. where got ppl say like JC one.

But then again... i only remember he is from my secondary school... but who is he?! I see the face, he look familiar and i see the name... who is he?

Anyway, I went back home with sport attire, feeling abit wasted so i did some stretching and do planking at least got do some exercise. If not so sian... because i decided to do exercise this whole week. but today like that... tml need to accompany my mum to starhub for the tv wire thing. then friday go dental... I'm so fat!!

Still about 01 Oct 2016
I really think i should record down Jordan's sleeping pattern.

This is what happen last night. Let me record it down every week, see if there are any repeat pattern.

So.. we always went to sleep like this..


In the middle of the night.. I woke up feeling shadow beside me...



I was so shock when i open my eyes in the middle of the night and i thought i feel someone staring at me. when i take a good look again, its his back. (I don't really know how to draw that position, but he is really near me and he is not totally lying down.)

I asked him. "eh? what happen? How come suddenly woke up?"
him: "Suddenly feel like thinking of my design."

I wonder if he is stress at work...

After that i fall asleep again


I woke up because i need to go to the washroom.
Then, I see Jordan went missing.
 



Thank you for giving me such a large space..he look like he got stuck in between the hole of the bed and the wall.

I came back from the wash room and go to sleep again.. The next time I woke up its because....



I got punch on my tummy.

1 Oct 2016.

I finally know why do i keep having back pain and keep going to the washroom every few hours. I am so worried there is something wrong with my intestine or kidney but no...Its UTI again!!

But why didn't i feel any pain this time? The Dr say its a mild one. Wah! mild one also can make my back so painful. I keep questioning the Dr. are you sure it is UTI? How do you tell it is UTI by the dipstick? When the Dr show me the urine dipstick he said you see the white colour patch? it is suppose to be white but now it is off white. But if something is wet, it will also become off white wat. I don't know why but i keep doubting him. Maybe because I only feel my back pain. Then the Dr say "The place where you pointed it hurts is your kidney and base on the symptom I say, it is UTI."  Ok.. maybe i was convince a little. so i am taking the antibiotic again. Still worrying if what if i don't feel any better. But I am glad the next day, my back still hurts but not that painful, although i still keep going to the washroom. I wish i can recover soon!  *pray

Yesterday my company have some mini events, it is suppose to encourage us to keep fit. so they invite some fitness group people and setup a place where they sell fruits hahhaa. I go and check my body fats. They say for us to have normal hormones is to stay at 22%? haha I forgot.. 20 something.

I remember last time when I loss weight and exercise, my body fats is 20?24%? if i didn't remember wrongly then people start commenting I look too skinny. Now i gain some weight, normal weight now but my body fats is 30%. The lady from the fitness group is quite nice, I think she know that I don't intend to join their gym. But keep asking if I have any question to ask her. She said when i was skinny, and dr told me i am too skinny, I should take weights to strengthen my muscle to gain weight and not listening to the Dr to eat more. Ok.. I made the wrong choice. After i eat more, my hormones started to go super imbalance. Now that i think back, when i was skinny that time, I don't have much issue. It all started when I listen to the  Dr to eat more and reduce my exercise. She said i exercise too much... (now that i think back, seriously who will say anyone exercise too much, I am going to change hospital for health checkup now) Then then the lady there intro me an apps call "Customfit." OH~ It is a really nice apps. You can do workout at home! Usually I watch youtube. But this app is so convenience.

I am going to start my diet now and not listening to people when they say I am already skinny don't need diet. I use to be 50KG, then i loss weight to 48kg, after tat i eat and enjoy myself, I still exercise but not that much anymore then i started to gain weight 54kg now hahahaa
When I was 48KG, I think my hormones is better, gastric better, and i feel better. Maybe on the average side, It still acceptable but different people different body, maybe when i have acceptable weight, inside consider obese... I don't know.. I shall try again. 

24 Sep 2016.

I am so sleepy! Again, i woke up every 3 hours to go to the washroom... Plus, all those funny patterns with Jordan beside me.

I don't think he know what he did last night. I was up very early and couldn't go back to sleep. So i drew it out .

We always went to sleep like this..


In the middle of the night..
 

I was being kicked awake again..
  

I will woke up him and push his leg away, after tat went back to sleep.


The bed vibrate!!
 

He always sleep in this kind of position with 1 leg up. then it slide..
 

1 cm at a time..
 

maybe 5 cm after tat..
 

then maybe 10 cm? It just take forever to have his leg slide completely down. so i kick his leg down last night. he woke up "huh?" haha I ignore him..
 

and went back to sleep..
 

Suddenly felt super cold..
 

  I woke up with no blanket..
 

Maybe he dream that he is a sushi this time.....
Waking up every 3 hours to the washroom plus this...  and he is sleeping so soundly while i do my blog..